I don’t like being here and I want to get away and my arm hurts so much and smells absolutely rank like I don’t know what’s wrong with it.

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paramoregifs:

This is the greatest pressure flip I’ve ever seen.. Hayley really nails the landing [x]

paramoregifs:

This is the greatest pressure flip I’ve ever seen.. Hayley really nails the landing [x]

Anonymous asked: wtf g r e a t eyeliner how did you do it so well????? nice job :))) x

rubyetc:

Oh ta! I think I think the brand is rimmel, but the gel liners and brushes are also good if you have the dollahimage

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My arm is so painful I ended up crying today. It’s STILL bleeding and it got bitten yesterday. My whole arm hurts. (And i’ve had a headache since the dog bit me yesterday). It’s so painful. I’m annoyed that’s its covered up and I can’t uncover it for three days (I can tell it’s still bleeding as it’s gone through the dressing) because I just want to take the dressings off and look at it, but at the same time I am grateful because I know otherwise I would have it uncovered and be picking at it. 

In terms of my mental health I am still dreading waking up every morning. Being in this house. Being alive. I feel so depressed. 
Not only has my brother left my sister-in-law/fiance, we found out (after he promised us otherwise) that he has been having an affair. I don’t know what to feel or say. I just am feeling so many negative emotions it’s hard to know what I feel about a particular thing, I don’t think think I’m making sense.

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legitrecovery:

Fighting depression is like trying to motivate yourself to keep going when your mind and body are telling you to shut down

Anonymous asked: I think that's something that is entirely your decision. How did she respond when you said you felt let down by her (well done on telling her by the way). Maybe you could just try meeting up with her this one time and see how it goes? She may be very apologetic. But ultimately, it's something you'll never know unless you try. I'm sorry to hear about your dad. I hope you're doing okay and even if you feel as if you're not, I believe you can do this :) x

To begin with she made excuses, then I think she realised I wasn’t gonna bs around it so she started apologising saying she had been a shit friend and to forgive her and stuff. I’m meeting up with her for a drink this afternoon/early evening and see how that goes. Thank you, hopefully things will get better. I don’t feel too hopeful though and struggling with bad thoughts but hey ho oh well aha x