I am Pol, I am 19 and in recovery.
There is no use thinking about tomorrow or yesterday, when I am in today.

Things just aren’t going okay with Skyla and it’s making me very anxious and very upset. 
People probably think I’m stupid, but Skyla is more than my dog. She is my best friend, my responsibility, my reason to keep going and get up in the morning. I need her to be 100% because I do rely on her so much, she is like a 24/7 therapy dog. 

I just want her leg to magically get better because I can’t afford the vet bills and I feel bad knowing she feels bad.

I want to go back to the vets but I can’t even afford to do that. I never want to go back to the stupid vets I went to because the treatment they gave was awful. 
I just wish I could help her. I’m such a useless owner.

Tw - Mentions of suicidal thoughts.

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letters to you

I will write about the following, leave one in my ask box.

Dear person I hate,

Dear person I like,

Dear ex boyfriend,

Dear ex girlfriend,

Dear ex bestfriend,

Dear bestfriend,

Dear *anyone*,

Dear Santa,

Dear mom,

Dear dad,

Dear future me,

Dear past me,

Dear person I’m jealous of,

Dear person I had a crush on,

Dear girlfriend,

Dear boyfriend,

My mums going on about how I should be paying her money to live here but why is it every time I go out she blackmails me to come back??
If she wants me to stay here then maybe stop going on at me. I do so much around the house, feed the animals, and all that sort of stuff.


1. When you cut yourself, clean and bandage it.

2. Do not start smoking cigarettes because the boy who broke your heart does.

3. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

4. Cutting calories doesn’t do anything but make you unhappy.

5. If the number on the scale rises, throw it out.

6. The first girl you ever “date” is going to call the police on you even though she lives three thousand miles away, because you’re going to tell her that you’re not in a good mental state shortly after you’ve “broken up”.

7. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

8. Break up with the boy who says, “You had a sexy phase!” when you tell him that you’ve dated a girl before.

9. Dating your friends is not always the best idea, but you can still be friends after you’ve broken up with her.

10. Your mother will try to become your best friend because you’re leaving for college soon. Let her.

11. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

12. Your closest friend will stop talking to you when you leave for college.

13. It’s okay to cry.

14. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

15. When you cut yourself again, clean and bandage it. Do not be ashamed.

16. Your anxiety is going to try and control your entire life. Tell it to shut the hell up, because you’re trying to live and that task is hard enough as it is.

17. The past has a funny way of coming back in the form of you developing a crush on another friend.

18. Try not to hate yourself for breaking up with your boyfriend.

19. If you’re still smoking, apologize silently to your mother.

20. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

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I don’t want Sunday to come as it’s just me and my mum home all day together and we both know my sister will be having a nice meal but it’s my fault we aren’t going because I don’t feel comfortable seeing my dad.
I’ll be sad because I’m ruining the family, my mum will go on and on about dieting and food and exercise and right now I just want to run away please and thank you.

Anonymous asked: All teas! All! omg <3

I love fruit tea, but HATE normal tea (and coffee) :’)

Anonymous asked: Do you like fruit/herbal teas? :o

ooooo yes I do! 
my favourite is raspberry and strawberry! Although I quite like Orange Crush too! 
What about you? :)




Go to Starbucks. Order coffee for “Prisoner 24601”

When they call out your order, jump up and yell “My name is Jean Valjean!”

And if the barista replies with “AND I’M JAVERT,you tip that motherfucker so hard

you tip them right over the edge of a bridge

you fucking didn’t