lifeaccordingtohan:

lifeaccordingtohan's follower giveaway!


I wanted to make a self care giveaway, but then I realised cats are self care so just went for cat related items!

Included above: 2 pairs of accessorise socks, 2 cat postcards, cat stickers which are tricky to see with the lighting, cat highlighters and a cat notebook (all the stationary is from paperchase! In case you wanted to know!)

Rules:
-must be following me
-Reblog to enter 
-You can enter as many times as you like- but please be considerate of your followers. 
-The winner will be drawn at random on the on the 7th of September to celebrate my first tumblr birthday!
-You need to be allowed to give me an address to post it to
-I will send anywhere worldwide!
-If you follow me on Instagram and twitter I will add in an extra mystery prize!!

NB: I will choose again at random if the initial winner had content I strongly ethically disagree with e.g. Pro ana, pro harm and porn based blogs.

lifeaccordingtohan:

lifeaccordingtohan's follower giveaway!


I wanted to make a self care giveaway, but then I realised cats are self care so just went for cat related items!

Included above: 2 pairs of accessorise socks, 2 cat postcards, cat stickers which are tricky to see with the lighting, cat highlighters and a cat notebook (all the stationary is from paperchase! In case you wanted to know!)

Rules:
-must be following me
-Reblog to enter
-You can enter as many times as you like- but please be considerate of your followers.
-The winner will be drawn at random on the on the 7th of September to celebrate my first tumblr birthday!
-You need to be allowed to give me an address to post it to
-I will send anywhere worldwide! -If you follow me on Instagram and twitter I will add in an extra mystery prize!!

NB: I will choose again at random if the initial winner had content I strongly ethically disagree with e.g. Pro ana, pro harm and porn based blogs.

My Mum’s getting annoyed at having to take me for my scan tomorrow. She keeps saying how I should just go in on my own then she can go and get some shopping done whilst I’m in there. I keep asking her to stay with me because I am very nervous/anxious about it and she’s not happy about it but will say she will wait in the waiting room with me. I just want her supprt. She tells me I have to stop being silly about it and it’s not a big deal. In my head it is a big deal, in my head it’s very scary, and I keep trying to think of any excuse I have no to go.

tagged: +personal  +ultrasound  +pcos 
Feelings are a little overwhelming. The psych appointment this mining has left me feeling so lonely and just makes me feel like my mum is telling the truth when she says there’s nothing wrong with me. I don’t know how to think or feel right and now and I feel like screaming.

Feelings are a little overwhelming. The psych appointment this mining has left me feeling so lonely and just makes me feel like my mum is telling the truth when she says there’s nothing wrong with me. I don’t know how to think or feel right and now and I feel like screaming.

tagged: +personal 

I need to re-dye my hair some time soon it looks awful.

tagged: +personal 

I’m just feel really annoyed still that my friend cancelled on me last minute and left me to sort out how I was going to get to the CMHT and get my bloods tested at the hospital the night before on facebook. I know I still got to my appointment, but I couldn’t go for a blood test because I didn’t know where the hospital was and didn’t feel comfortable going on my own (although I love injectetions/needles - I don’t like going places on my own.). It’s just angered me a lot and I feel like they never really liked me anyway and don’t want me to be their friend and they’re just trying to get rid of me.

tagged: +personal  +thoughts 

I feel so let down and abandoned by the cmht. I just feel completely done with it all. 

I have my scan tomorrow and I am so nervous. 

My Mum is off all next week and I am dreading it because most likely we will argue and I will end up tackling suicidal thoughts.

It took me an hour to get to the CMHT. Sat in the waiting room for ages, then my psych called me in and I spoke to her for literally 5 minutes. She just asked me to rate my anxiety, mood and appetite on a scale. My anxiety has got better. I kept trying to talk about how up and down I feel but she wouldn’t let me talk. She told me I’m near the top of the list for my assessment (apparently). Then my psych just said well at least your anxiety seems better, your dbt skills can help when you feel low and that she will book me in for another appointment in 6 months. 
That was it.
THAT WAS IT. 
I didn’t even get to talk properly about what I was trying to say! 

I came home and brought food on the way with my spare change and (tw) binged on 1.5 pints of ice cream, sweets, sweets, and more sweets. The full feeling didn’t even take my other feelings away and I stupidly purged because I just wanted to feel something else. 

I just feel sdjfsdkfjdskfj 

I can hear my psych talking in the office. I’m so anxious ah I just want to get up and leave.

tagged: +personal 
I messed up, I know. I always do.

On the bus to take me halfway to my psych appointment. I’m so anxious about it. She wants to up my anti depressant bumecaxusr of when I feel low, but I don’t want to because it’s not this constant feeling of depression I have anymore, these low periods are just so intensely down but in a mood swing sort of way. It’s complicated to explain.

tagged: +personal  +cmht  +depression  +eupd